Sunday, November 7, 2010

Tawakkal dan tafwiq

Its 7th day of the week of 11th month of the year...yup!...7-11..
 Okay! Okay!....lame...but i just had to get that out of the way!

It was a good 7-11, ngaji at Jenderam was accompanied by my boys and also with ADAM and NABIL Hope they enjoyed it, they didn't complain so i just they did.

Before ngaji started, we all waited for Pak Sheikh to come as he is known to do his rounds around the community before he starts his ceramah. As I was spacing my mind wondering away, I was alerted by Pak Itam of something behind my right side. I then felt a gentle tap on my right shoulder and to my surprise, it was pak sheikh. He was already squating by me and I was a little overwhelmed by his unexpected presence beside me. He wanted to ask if the intended Maulud at Ellenar could be fixed for another date besides the first choice of 18th Dec as on that date it was already booked for a function with BANAT for AL JENDERAMI.

I consented to Pak Sheikh to choose any day that is convenient for him as it will be an honor to have him and all of Jenderami jemaah in our ALLAH Blessed Ellenar! He suggested and we finally determined that it will be 19th of DEC 2010. I obliged to his choice...ALHAMDULILLAH!

Friday, November 5, 2010

..Hard!

Its Hard...Its very very hard!..

But I am not allowed to give up!

...I am allowed to sigh!
...I am allowed to feel frustrated!
...I am allowed to feel devastated!
...I am allowed to screaming my lungs out!
...I am allowed to cry!

I am NOT ALLOWED TO GIVE UP!

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Minhajul Abidin hari AHAD...

Salaam semua,
I just returned from SUNDAY ngaji at Jenderam. I went alone today, everyone else has their own agenda. Hopefully I will have company next time and may it be regular.

MINHAJUL ABIDIN...kita hari AHAD pagi.

In one posting several days back, I wrote about "COVERING WELL.." today there was some more piece of information that is worth sharing. New ilmu that should be shared with all.


In a hadith yang di riwayatkan oleh Uhsami bin Zaid waktu zaman RASULLULAH, ...Uhsami related that he was given a gift of a particular cloth by the Prophet. Uhsami was very happy with the gift and wanted to share the gift with his wife. When Rasullulah heard that Uhsami wanted to share the gift with his wife, our Prophet adviced Uhsami to inform his wife that she must have a second inner layer of cloth when she wears the cloth from our Prophet's gift because it is "jarang" dan dapat melihatkan bentuk badan nye. Sesungguh, Rasullulah told Uhsami, "Pastikan ahli keluarga kamu yang wanita kamu berpakaian tidak melanggar hukum, kerana sia sia ibadah mereka kepada ALLAH...HARAM itu  adalah pada hukumnye, tapi yang lebih menyedihkan lagi adalah kemurkaan ALLAH adalah yang menghalang keberkatan keatas mereka". Mereka tertipu dengan perasaan gembira dan suka mereka itu dalam pemakaian busana mereka, tetapi sesungguhnye gembira dan suka itu hanya lah kepada makhluk lain...keMURKAAN ALLAH di abaikan.

USTAZ shared that ramai wanita sekarang yang memakai tudung tapi tidak paham hukum menutup aurat. Incidentally, what I shared in my last posting was repeated without plan in today's ilmu. USTAZ kata yang pakai tudung tapi aurat kuilt lain terdedah, baik lah tak payah pakai. Jadi bahan cerca sahaja...atas tutup tapi lengan terdedah...atas tutup, seluar ketat!

Kalau Rasullulah telah menegur Uhsami dalam melindungi "bentuk badan" dari pandangan ajnabi...apa lagi dalam hal dedahan kulit. Dalam solat pun, ramai wanita lupa yang telekong nye mesti cukup tebal untuk tidak nampak warna kulit. Kalau tidak sia sia...

Peringatan dalam berbusana untuk muslimat,...wangi wangian yang di pakai oleh muslimah dan apabila bauan nye terhidu oleh ajnabi...dosa nye sama dengan BERZINA!...Auzubillah!

Another topic extracted from todays session...tajdrik dan asbab!


Ramai di antara kita, apabila membuat sesuatu, sering memikirkan tentang usaha itu lah yang mendatang sebab (asbab). But actually, dalam kebenaran ma'rifatullah, mengusahakan sesuatu adalah sepatutnya atas fahaman tajdriq (iaitu ALLAH sahaja lah yang menentukan segalanye).

Banyak yang di kongsikan oleh Ustaz berhubung dengan bab ini dengan menceritakan tentang ahli sufi. Terlebih dahulu, harus di ingat, cerita ahli ahli sufi seperti yang di dalam kitab ini, cannot be shared to the general audience. In additition, ia bukan untuk kupasan orang orang biasa. Ia nye hanya bagi mereka mereka yang "dekat" dengan jalan menuju ALLAH.

The reason he mentioned this is because, most stories about ahli ahli sufi are "out-of -this-world" where the normal rational cannot accept.

Dalam bab tajdrik, yang mana ianya menjadi amalan biasa ahli ahli sufi ..."membuat sesuatu usaha dengan hanya memikirkan yang hujungnya usaha tu adalah milik kuasa dan jaminan ALLAH swt sahaja."..keyakinan penuh keatas ini lah yang membezakan orang yang sungguh teguh IMAN nye kepada ALLAH dengan mereka mereka yang lemah iman nye. Kepada yang tidak kuat hati nye kepada kepercayaan ini, ia nya sentaisa memikikan "asbab"/ sebab dan akibat.
Seperti:
"Dengan segelas air dan sepinggan nasi, kita bule hilang dahaga dan hilang lapar.".... many of the common folks will only stop at that thought.

But for the those of elevated status, a status more proximate in "presence" to the DIVINE, a status we all should strive to achieve...the glass of water and the plate of rice is not the reason for the lost of thirst and hunger. In fact, many more glasses of water and more plates of rice will not necessarily achieve the same outcome...if YA RABB does not WILL it to. Simultaneously, NO GLASS and NO RICE can still achieve fullness in appetite!

Bagi ahli ahli sufi yang "maqam" nye tinggi, mereka langsung tidak memikirkan tentang sebab dan akibat. Dalam pada itu, Ustaz menceritakan tentang beberapa waliAllah yang tidak makan atau minum selama beberapa bulan. Di dalam satu kisah yang di riwayatkan dalam kitab Minhajul Abidin, seorang ahli sufi telah biasa dengan tidak makan dan tidak minum selama tiga hari, At the end of 3 days, he will get his portion of his ration from ALLAH. And again another 3 days will past without anymore food or drinks and again this continues for a years.

But one day, the third day arrives without any of his ration and it goes on for the forth day, and the fifth and so on. He began to worry...and this worry led him to start his journey to "search" for his ration as he feels so much of thirst and hunger. As he continues his search...he was "spoken" to and that "voice' asked him...YA ABU SAID, adakah kamu tidak tajdrik?...adakah kamu masih berasbab?"...

As soon as he "heard" this "voice"...his came into resentment and guilt of his lost of FAITH in HIM for his supplies and ration. He immediately became less hungry and less thirsty and left the outcome of all his worldly demands to HIM alone as ABU SAID conitnued ibadah as before. He was then deemed to have return to his tracks of tasawwuf!

Jangan hairan dengan kelainan atau keajaiban...kerana ALLAH swt itu TUHAN yang MAHAAAAA AGUNG dan MAHAAAAAA BERKUASA. (He stressed the word maha)


Pak Shiekh reminds us also...perjalanan tasawwuf tidak lari dari ... riadah wal mujahaddah - meaning, training dan mujahaddah. He gave example of a military officer in training. The officer is trained to live in a jungle for days without food and water and at the end of the training, he will come out as a well trained survivor ready for many other types hardship during battle assignments.

A "travelling" murid, i.e. a murid who wishes to travel towards HIM...will need to be trained too by his mursyid. In addition, his mursyid cannot train him without the syllabus of tariqat.

Wassalam

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Good Advice...

Salaam,
After a long hiatus...I returned to the realm of "ngaji" at JENDERAM this morning...rather shyly I entered the zone of my favorite refuge in this part of the world. Pak Sheikh was entertaining guest from INDONESIA when I arrived. We started late, only after the guest had left for their arranged program for the day...

"Bermadai dengan dunia seperti orang lain yang memerlukan dunia, tapi jangan keterlaluan sehingga melalaikan tanggung jawab mu dengan ALLAH dan...mati!"

These are some very deep words drawn from MINHAJUL ABIDIN - today's reading by Pak Sheikh, but it was a good reminder for me and members of my family (only my second son was with me today) that I felt it worth the time to blog this just before I retire for the day, in hope that the rest of my family members will read this some day and reflect on it.

The advise hits deep in me...often we are embroiled too much in the worldly affairs and worry too much that with our"neglect" of it, we will loose out. On intent to avoid disaster, we misguidedly set ourselves and occupy our time and mind to protect it.

But as Pak Sheikh said...we should fear not as..."REZEKI kita, DIA sahaja yang susun dan tentukan nya". Whilst, it is true that we are obligated to act and react upon these worldly troubles ...but please bear in mind that our actions are a matter of "asbab" (sebab) but the result of our action is not the fruit of our own labor...but the result of HIS DIVINE detemination that it responses the way HE wants it to respond. So we should set time to deal with our affairs of the world but MINHAJUL ABIDIN teaches that we should not overwhelmed ourselves to it alone!

How little we actually are, we often forget...this is because we are trained too well with the thought that the WE ARE GREAT!..WE CAN DO GREAT THINGS, WE CAN ACCOMPLISH THE IMPOSSIBLE.....so much so that we forget that our greatness is the virtue of HIS OWN GREATNESS!

"Mortals are wired enough with the POWER to do great things, but the SUPPLY of that power is from the DIVINE alone! - rara"

We often fight for greatness and when it does be BLESSED upon us...we think it is our own mortal effort alone. NO NO NO....

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Cover well...

I get easily annoyed and irritated when I see Muslim ladies dress with a head gear to cover their hair "tudung" as any muslimah should...but the rest of their body parts is "exposed". And to add further irritation they will keep adorn their attire with suggestive sights! Its either their neck flesh is showing or for some even have unbuttoned blouse to show their upper part of their chest....PROUDLY!...A'uzubillah!

And then of course there are those who will have tightly pulled up pants that shows the shape of their torso and even confidently and flauntingly show their VPL....(visible panty line!)

I hate seeing this....I don't enjoy it! and I think they are making fun of ISLAM.

If they are going to dress as  MUSLIMAH, PLEASE dress as a proper MUSLIMAH!

I hope those of my charges will take note of this!

Sunday, August 29, 2010

...ermm...

On most days, I have many thoughts that flow thru the grey matter which can become the source of topic to blog...just moments before this I had them all...but now, "poof"!... an empty page is staring back at me as my mind has gone blank!

Let's give this some time before I re-log and re-blog!....

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Isra' mikraj @ SHAH ALAM Section 19

Salaam,
I had just return from majlis menyambut isra' mikraj dan maulid at Masjid Ubudiyah section 19, Shah Alam.

I left early because it had been raining this evening and I knew the traffic would be bad and I didn't want to be caught in it. ...WRONG!..I did get caught! The thing is, I left the house initially thinking this event was in Section 19, SUBANG JAYA...I don't why, but I thought I had read the sms broadcast-ed from YAJ as such. After battling the traffic to get there, I realized that was not the place when there was no usual crowd, more evident when the parking lots were CLEAR! and then I read the sign board in front of the mosque...it read MASJID ABU BAKAR As Siddiq and not MASJID UBUDIYAH!.....DING!!!! only then I remember it is at SHAH ALAM!...o boy!

I braved the traffic again to get there but had trouble locating the MASJID. When I did find it, it was already in the middle of the program. ALHAMDULILLAH!

Ustaz was in his usual element tonight. The topic was bout isra' mikraj but he interspersed it with other reminding issues. I always feel very lonely when I go to these function especially when the topics are so relevant and something I wish my family members would have the chance to listen. I will try to convey them here which is the purpose of me keeping this blog any way but I believe it is not just the news and that they will be missing when they dont come, but the barakah of the majlis.

Today Ustaz, reminded us that we are too engrossed with our worldly affairs so much so that we put up a fight and defend our so called rights over our material things but we take our responsibilities to HIM very lightly. As an example, our solat is done as brief as we can possible because we rush ourselves to end it so that we can attend to our worldly affairs again. This is so true to some of us, me included and I bring this reminder to my family members. that ... 

"ramai orang ingat kesenangan dunia akan dapat membawa ketenangan...but sebenar nya, yang mereka rasa ketenangan dengan harta dunia itu ialah tipu daya shaitan. Yang di cari ketenangan dalam hati itu sebenarnya tidak perlu langsung kepada apa apa benda dunia..jika kita terasa yang kita masuk dalam golongan tertipu ini, maka cepat cepatlah sedar, jika tidak selaput itu akan mengelapkan lagi hati dan merosakan nya dan bila perangai kita berubah atas sebab itu, kita masuk lagi dalam tertipu"

Ustaz kata sekarang ini, banyak anak anak muda dan juga orang orang tua terlalu leka dengan dunia, terlalu bangga dengan kejayaan mereka. Mereka fikir yang ALLAH telah memberkati mereka dengan kejayaan dunia ini...tetapi boleh mungkin kejayaan ini menjauhkan kita dari ALLAH dan bukan yang sebalik nya.

These messages hit close to home because, my family needs to be reminded of this...often! I am scared and sadden that sometime I feel helpless when I cannot advise my them of this for fear that they will not accept it. I don't like to get into disputes and because of that I always "step-away" and "keep-out". but I do realize this is not the best way to get to them. InsyaALLAH, I hope one day it will.

During the event of isra' mikraj...RASULLULAH is given the chance to "ask" from HIM, but he didnt because his humbleness is based on the principle that, "who am I to ask ALLAH for anything?"

The thing is HE has always and nver failed to provide...it is rather shameful, one should think that, after being given plenty, you ask some more!...

Here, Rasullulah leaves all matter of himself to ALLAH...and this is our teaching to be learn. We must leave all matter of our own affairs to HIM...but after we have expense d our own mortal efforts!

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Running towards SUCCESS with a bag of failures in tow!

Salaaaaaamualaium, it's been awhile since I last posted anything...a looong while! There has been many failed attempts at it, beaten by a busy schedule despite having many issues that I wish to share.

I don't really know if this effort (keeping this blog) will bring any benefit at all because since putting up my first entry, there has been little interest from the "reading community". But I will ignore it now and leave that to HIM, perhaps one day it will be useful, InsyaALLAH.


As usual, teachings extracted from sessions with Ustaz Hafiz and other ulamaks are usually my origin of inspiration and often also events and incidences of life give me ideas to share.

Today I like to talk about how much people change because of success!

Success is good, everyone wants it, strives towards it and builds their lives around attaining in, you get no argument from me on this! But when one becomes too accustom to success, accumulates it and gets addicted to it, there is DANGER! ... it can also destroy you. The hearts becomes tainted! Too much success will make you forget that you have failures and short falls too.  These strings of success WILL get into our head and we become arrogant and defensive to criticism highlighted to us. It leads to inflated ego and builds upon the illusion of our own sense of invincibility...life is full of illusions!

The reality of life is actually managing the illusions it presents..

There has been a lot of these around and this is worrying, even more because it alters a person into another character.  Inflated ego is as subtle as the soft wind blowing the pollen off the flower in spring time. You often cannot see how far the pollen flies and effects the rest, but the reality is, it changes things!

As one goes higher, one needs to be more humble...because those who helped to get you up there are the ones who will be happy to hold you up. Remember that only they will know you as you are before and they will know how to continue to hold you as you like to be held. But if you "change" they will not be familiar with the "new" you and they will not know how to manage this new you. When you decide that they are not relevant anymore, you will lose out even if you think that you will find some other "supporter"...you will struggle to find the replacement despite your admission that you can...now that's another illusion.

Don't be fearful of failure because it is the foundation to achieving your success.

but do remember too...

"Chase success while carrying your bags of failures and remember those who helped you pack! - rara"

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Ramai Anak Anak sekarang derhaka kepada Ibubapa...


Salaam, 
Hopefully you all will gain many benefits from this write-up. Its a reminder to every person who still has parents and that includes me...

Al-Isra’: 23

Dan Tuhanmu telah perintahkan, supaya engkau tidak menyembah melainkan kepadaNya semata-mata, dan hendaklah engkau berbuat baik kepada ibu bapa. Jika salah seorang dari keduanya, atau kedua-duanya sekali, sampai kepada umur tua dalam jagaan dan peliharaanmu, maka janganlah engkau berkata kepada mereka (sebarang perkataan kasar) sekalipun perkataan "Huh", dan janganlah engkau menengking menyergah mereka, tetapi katakanlah kepada mereka perkataan yang mulia (yang bersopan santun).


Tercatat di ayat dua perintah
Pertama tauhid Allah disembah
Kedua hormat merujuk ibu-ayah
Demikian perintah jangan disanggah

Setitis mani dikau berasal
Perit mengandung tiada disesal
Ibu-ayah sabarnya kental
Melayani anak tak pernah gagal

Kasih mereka tidak terhingga
Diharap si anak begitu juga
Membela mereka di usia senja
Bersikap lembut, ikhlas menjaga

Namun hakikatnya berlainan belaka
Ramai muncul anak derhaka
SiTanggang tidak sekadar cereka
Yang ujud sekarang lebih celaka

Si anak lupa ayat di atas
Berkata kasar dilarang keras
Apatah lagi perbuatan ganas
Menyisih orangtua tanpa belas
Neraka Jahanam dia dibalas